So, I'm back. I've been here, just not *here*-here. My writing time at the computer has been spent dissertating. Dissertation is a dirty, dirty word to me right now.
But blogging fell by the wayside. Lots has been going on, but I'm going to keep it short and to the point right now. This blog started out in the "old days" of MySpace (ha!) as a place for me to write about my dogs. Writing has always been therapeutic for me--not writing in the dissertation sense, but in the journaling sense. And now, more than ever, I need some therapy. Sampson--my old man/my best friend--has degenerative myelopathy--more big words I have learned through Sampson's health issues. It's not good. Basically, the nerves in his spinal cord are dying. (Here's a good, quick summary via the American Boxer Club: http://americanboxerclub.org/purina1.html .) He is becoming paralyzed. He has lost almost all control over his left, back leg. But he is holding on. He has some good times and bad times. I think he's still happy--getting joy from food, treats, and love. We have made some adjustments to daily life. My heart remains heavy--in all likelihood, his spine is going to give out before the rest of his body--and that means a tough, tough decision for me. But I know it's the right one--I just hope I know when it's the "right" time.
I found this great blog today while Googling Sampson's disease. Great, because 1. It made me feel like I am not alone and 2. It reminded me that maybe blogging shouldn't fall by the wayside. I came back here...my Moon-Flavored Ice Cream--the things that make me smile and give me the warm and fuzzies. And I read about Sampson over the past few years. I am glad I have a place where some of his life up until this point has been chronicled. Maybe I should get back on that routine?
So, here I am...and I think I'll be back. I can't promise when, the topic, or the tone. If there is one thing Sampson has taught me, it's to be happy and enjoy the here and now. Whether it was during a deployment or just a plain old gloomy day, he was there to make me smile--to bring me joy. And that's the meaning of the crazy title of this blog...so, I *think* I will be able to make time for my writing therapy, with a scoop of Moon-Flavored Ice Cream.